I've really been feeling like I've been thrown in the deep end so far and it's been a pretty uncomfortable experience. I had a few days off in the first week due to illness and that put me a bit behind with my work. I came in every day and stayed for all the self study periods to catch up and I managed complete almost all of the criteria for this project, though I do feel like I'm still lacking a bit compared to others.
Most of the people I've talked to have been doing art for two or three years. I, on the other hand, have hurtled in from a theatrical makeup background and didn't even take GCSE art. Just to add to this feeling of inadequacy, I wasn't really making any friends up until the last week. There was a point where I was honestly thinking this course wasn't right for me and I wouldn't see it through; I was feeling so lonely and behind and eventually everything just piled up and I had a rather embarrassing tearful episode with my tutor. We did talk it out and I felt a hell of a lot better afterwards, knowing that I wasn't going to fail and as long as I had worked hard, it wasn't necessarily bad that I didn't have as much work as some other students.
With regards to my work, I am a little disappointed in the amount but proud of what I have achieved. Looking around, I saw a lot of people filling up all their walls with so much work; colour, black and white, sketches, fabrics, paints, all sorts! I, having very little experience with a lot of the mediums people were using, spent more time just playing around with them than making work I could put on my wall. Over the course of the project, I played around with shibori (a Japanese tie-dye), ink, oil pastels and even coffee!
I have a prediction that I may not get amazing grades in this course like I did in my previous one, but I really think I'm going to take a lot more out of it knowledge wise. For me, that would be a good outcome.
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